:) ♥ Derek&Joanna 4/14/08-4ever&ever ♥ (:

*cries* omg baby

i miss you so much

i seriously miss you

omg, *sigh*

i don't want any one else

i swear baby

omg. i was just thinking this last night:

"Derek is so fucking perfect. no one has ever been this importaint to me.
i'm like the most selfish person ever & i'd probably think about myself before anyone else
but Derek means so much to me that i can't help but think about his safety or happiness."

& i was also thinking

"omg. i feel like i'm holdong Derek down. he could easily find another girlfriend where he lives

& like. he could have anyone in a snap of a finger. he deserves someone who will be there to help

him out when he needs it. he needs someone better than me."


baby. i love you so much. you seiously make me smile & feel a warm feeling inside

i love you so much. you're not a bad boyfriend

please don't say that. i know it's been hard for us because of everything happening but that's

just life. it's fucking tough,


i don't give a fuck how lobg i have to wait to talk to you or to finally be next to you

hugging you

looking you into the eyes & telling you just how much you truley mean to me baby

serisouly


i would fucking wait forever

i love you so fucking much

you have no idea how much i mean it EVERY TIME I WRITE IT DOWN

you're the first person who's made me write poems & all these cutesy love stuff

like i do about you


i never ever want to ever fucking lose you

i mean that with everything in me

i want no one else but you

i love you so fucking much. i can't help but repeat that because it's true,

every time. forever


& i promise to never hurt you either baby,

Derek, you're the most importaint part of my life.

everything else is meaningless.


i don't ever want to think or even imagine what life would be like without you

*sigh*

you make me so happy.

i think i'd fucking die.

sometimes i feel like giving up & just dropping dead but

then i think about you and how i'm so fucking lucky to have you

no other fucking boy can compare to the feeling i get when we talk

i love you so fucking much

i miss you everyday, more than i've ever missed anyone

i read over all the notes, comments on Myspace , picture comments & all that

every time i miss you

i have a notebook with all the things you ever send me

i'm a fucking wierdo >_

"Connected"


I'm down-folded on this roller coaster they call life
Keep trying to make it through the next turn,
That goes wide and hold in tight

So here I go, (So here I go)
I'm takin' a curve
but I know that I'm never alone
I think of you, until you never let me go

[Chorus:]
I feel connected, protected
It's like you're sitting right with me all the time
You hear me, you're near me,
And everything else's gonna be alright
'Cause nothin' can break this
Nothin' can break this
Nothin' can break this tie
Connected

We're connected in time

It's not an accident, the time we spent apart
But now we're so close
I can always find you right here in my heart

You're giving me, the somethin' I need
And I don't ever want it to end
Because of you, I know I found my strength again

[Chorus:]
I feel connected, protected
It's like you're sitting right with me all the time
You hear me, you're near me,
And everything else's gonna be alright
'Cause nothin' can break this
Nothin' can break this
Nothin' can break this tie
Connected

We're connected in time

[Bridge:]
Everytime that I breathe, I can feel the energy
Reachin' out, flowin' through
You to me and me to you
Wake or dream
Walk or stand
You are everywhere I am
Seperate souls, unfiend
Touching at the speed of air flying

You're giving me, the somethin' I need
And I don't ever want it to end
Because of you, I know I found my strength again

I feel connected, protected
It's like you're sitting right with me all the time
You hear me, you're near me,
And everything else's gonna be alright

[Chorus:]
Connected, protected
It's like you're sitting right with me all the time
You hear me, you're near me,
And everything else's gonna be alright
'Cause nothin' can break this
Nothin' can break this
Nothin' can break this tie
Connected

tbh that almost made me cry
ive only just recently got to know joanna but now shes my silly bestie and its obvious how much u two care about each other.
its just soo cute,
tbh ur grades aint that bad
and english who likes english anyway
ur parents should lighten up
u aint being a bad bf cos u cant respond
she understand

xxx jess

The grounding is kinda bullshit lol- u only had 2 bad grades and everything else was good lol

I got a song for u too but won't put it in a comment, I'll just let u look it up lol. I love this song so much- I listen to it a lot cuz it reminds me of my boyfriend back home (I'm away at college)
Anyway, it's called "Wait For Me" by Theory of a Deadman. It seriously makes me cry every time I hear it!

wait..u learn chinese?=)